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    June 15, 2012

    And then school started.

    Enter uncomfortable moments, confusion and swallowing any pride I've ever had. This isn't exactly Eat, Pray, Love (at least there's no beautiful Spanish man whisking you to his private villa) however, the school is beautiful and my teacher, Slyvia, is so patient and kind. We sit in a courtyard with a waterfall and fish to one side and the mountainous vista to the other. In the middle of a frustrating verb conjugation (verbos, verbos y mas verbos as we like to laugh about) I do have to pinch myself that this is life for awhile. Sylvia laughs at me all day as I make mistakes, correct myself, make more mistakes, laugh a lot and do it all loudly and over-enthusiastically. She told a friend that I have a true passion for Spanish...which I guess is true, as one needs to have in order to stand being corrected a million times a day. Si. We get along very well and I've discovered we're both over-emotional. Wednesday we went to the market to practise speaking and in one of the stores I bought a beautiful newborn outfit for my new niece-or-nephew-to-come. For no reason at all, the store owner began to wrap up these beautiful dried flowers for my teacher and I, as a gift. She sent us both on our way with these beautiful arrangements and told me that when I return to Canada, to place them in my the living room as a reminder of Guatemala...they act as a blessing for your space. Slyvia & I both teared up upon leaving the store...it was a beautiful gesture and yet, that's just how the people are here.

    Casa Xelaju
    From the rooftop terrace where we have tea on our break.
    Bonita Slyvia. The little teacher that could.
    The oddest flowers I ever did see.
    My courtyard classroom.
    Con las flores bonitas.
    The day Slyvia decided I could actually speak &
    understand Spanish. 
    Guineos y Platinos
    Dulce old man
    Just for fun.
    Want some?
    I don't.
    So each day, after breakfast (all conversations in Spanish), five straight hours of Spanish, and lunch (you bet, everything Spanish), I tend to be mucho ready for a siesta. However this week, the school lined up a Mayan Ceremony (with everything but the animal sacrifice of course) and on Friday, a conference on the changing of the Mayan Calendar. The Ceremony was beautiful, and I received the rojo candles for "amor" to offer to the circle. And as for the "world ending" on December 21st, we stayed at school for hours talking about what is really to come. It´s about a time of a time of rebirth as to what the world will look like in the future. It will be based on love for all living beings, for everything that is on our earth. The cycle is 5,125 years long and we may not get to see this...but I sincerely hope we do.
    Believe it or not, Jeans is a Mayan priest.

    I feel strongly that creating sustainable food systems will be an important component of this new cycle...leaving behind the Multi-Nationals who care only about money and greed...bringing it back to local, sustainable sources...which, fortunately, brings me to this Food Security Project. After you see these countries that lack so much and have a day to day struggle from hand to mouth, I believe nutrition will be the key, the first key, to change. Once we have full bellies, we can work on education, empowerment, development, nourishment...I'm thankful for the opportunity to learn firsthand how this could work.

    So, on Monday when I had the pleasure of meeting a like-minded individual from New York, I wasn't surprised to hear that she is going to take her Masters at Georgia State and intends to do a research project on...none other than sustainable food systems. We got talking and she is going to come with us this weekend on a trip to discuss the El Salvador project further. Future co-project manager? Maybe that's the way the Universe works.

    We were also lucky to meet a woman here who was the recipient of a Habitat for Humanity home in 2002. When she discovered that that's how Jim & I met, her smile lit up the whole street. Truly inspiring to see how far HFH reaches.

    We also got to enjoy a few tropical storms. Walking the narrow streets on tiny sidewalks with an umbrella and rain and wind is like a video game. When you pass others, one of you innately moves their umbrella up so you don't hit each other. It's like a jedi mind trick, who is gonna go up and who is gonna go down? I always try to will the oncoming person to go up. Going up is harder. Next, there are poles and cars parked so tight to the curb that you must withdraw your umbrella so it fits through and immediately put it back out so that your bag (i.e. Laptop and school notes) don't get drenched. As soon as you do that, you have to swing around the pole to avoid being hit by oncoming traffic. I laughed the whole way home although I was soaked, as the rain is warm and I feel terribly cozy.

    Epic storm rolling in.
    As we head into the fin de semana and I finish up my first week of school, I bid you adieu for the weekend and hope everyone at home is warm and enjoying our beautiful Canadian lifestyle. I have much time to reflect here and it's been tranquil thus far. It brought tears to my eyes to hear that my teacher told a friend that I live with a lot of heart...that even though I cannot seem to get my point across all the time in Spanish, I am at least attempting to get it by with my character. I try to always remember that a smile is universal and somehow it works. Everyone in the house teases me incessantly and I wonder sometimes how that happens in the different places I go. Either I'm really blonde, or it's that I always turn into the little sister / clown of the house because I do things like throw chilltepe peppers into my mouth without thinking and then die laughing and crying...or I spend 10 minutes trying to explain that I need to have my lightbulb changed because it's burnt out in the middle of a storm that has rendered us with no electricity...or maybe because I use universal expressions such as "ei yi yi" that no one seems to understand, but everyone seems to think is funny.

    Entonces, I'll leave you with the wise, wise words of Parker J. Palmer, the author of a book called Let Your Life Speak. I was given it almost the day I arrived from mi amiga here and finished it in four days. It's a must read. Anyway, I hope you enjoy:


    In talking about Vaclav Havel, playwright, dissident, prisoner, the old president of the Czech Republic and Chairman of the New York based Human Rights Foundation... “The salvation of this human world lies nowhere else than in the human heart, in the human power to reflect, in human modesty and in human responsibility. Without a global revolution in the sphere of human consciousness, nothing will change for the better...and the catastrophe toward which this world is headed, whether it be ecological, social, demographic or a general breakdown of civilization...will be unavoidable.”


    The power for authentic leadership, Havel tells us, is found not in external arrangements but in the human heart. These are the inner points from which oppressed people have gained the leverage to lift immense boulders and release transformative change. 


    More to come...

    December 28, 2011

    Nothing like the cozy holidays to lift your spirits and make you remember what's important.
    I was really lucky this year with seeing those close to me. It started in Winnipeg, spending time with many friends. Back at home I had girlfriends over for drinks & laughs. Christmas Eve we did some moving into the Habitat home. When I got home, my nephew actually walked right up to me and put his arms up, "Up!" (best feeling ever). Christmas Day was spent with my close family minus only one: Lord Gregory, who was so missed. Boxing Day ensured we golfed the regular Classic with the "extended" family. Lots of laughs and good competition. My brother and I got to have late night chit chats and we even had a (quick, but cozy nonetheless) winter bonfire. Last, but not least - snowboarding. Ahem... attempting to snowboard.
    Moving Day - Xmas Eve
    Birthday cupcakes for my brother.
    Next Great Baker attempt for xmas cupcakes.
    Maybe not the best. But pretty cute.
    Next Great Baker for my nephew's 1st bday.
    Although I can't take all the credit.
    Christmas Day love
    Boxing Day Classic. Me & the boys.
    Brought home genie pants for my nephews.
    They loved 'em! Well, maybe not Kase.
    Geocaching with Grandpa & Ry
    Auntie sandwich!
    My xmas gifts for the 2 superhero's in my life
    Winter bonfires
    Christmas cuddles with Uncle Jeff.
    At this time of year there is all sorts of reflection and thoughts of new beginnings. 
    What will 2012 hold? 
    My goals? I might as well put them out there and make myself accountable: 

    I purchased a Spanish audiobook on my Kindle and had to get a monthly membership. I guess this means I'm really learning Spanish this year. 
    I'm crossing the mystical city of Sedona & the Grand Canyon off my list.
    I want to finish these. three. last. courses. so my degree is done for now.
    I hope to make it to South/Central America for a women's project.
    Finally...moving. East coast or mountains?

    Shit. That's a big year. Here we go!

    December 04, 2011


    Christmas is the coziest time of year. My favourite things are being home with family, sitting by the fireplace or Christmas tree, playing games, cuddling with my nephews and pets and bundling up and going for walks (or in my family... going golfing). I am an extremist when it comes to being cozy, wearing the fuzziest socks and warmest scarves. I love shopping malls and markets, if only for the hustle and bustle and great moods that everyone is in. It's a time of year to reflect on achievements and to just relax and veg on yummy treats.

    It's a time for cozy naps under the tree.
    And cozy Christmas pj's
    And a rather perfect time for my newest passion...
    Fondant & sprinkles & icing oh my!

    However...as many other people I've spoke too, I struggle with the materialism of the season.

    I've been doing a lot of thinking and reflecting, having freshly arrived home from one of the highly impoverished countries in the world, and this year I have a slightly different perspective. After experiencing Diwali in Jaipur I've seen a Universal truth, mainly being this: materialism happens everywhere. I was shocked to discover that Indians spend billions of dollars on firecrackers and sweets every year. I spent my Diwali visiting various homes in the slums of Jaipur. I don't know what I expected, but we saw that everyone had a new outfit to wear, new jewelry and various new items for puja (Hindu worship). We were given gifts and force-fed sweets everywhere we went. I was somewhat surprised at the similarities between Christmas here and Diwali there.

    It made me realize that no matter where you live or what conditions you're living in, it is human to love holidays. To have that one part of the year where you splurge a little more and treat those you love -- whether it's a monetary splurge or otherwise.

    At this time of year we all have our chance to do a little good -- whether it`s volunteering for Christmas Cheer or Siloam Mission or shopping for sustainable Christmas gifts. It's the time when everyone seems to particularly giving. In the past week I have done two festive campaigns for two different clients that are entirely centered around giving back to our communities. We're donating lots of corporate money and time to Christmas charities based around Winnipeg, Regina and Edmonton...more than I could give alone all year. This is when I LOVE my job.

    So I invite you to enjoy some guilt-free indulgence this holiday season. It doesn't have to mean indulging in something you don't need. I mean the real stuff: love, hugs, food & giving. The magic of Christmas comes in those little moments: seeing the face of a loved one light up opening a gift, letting someone in line ahead of you who seems to be in a rush or helping someone in need.

    If you're looking for interesting gift ideas that are socially responsible and could give women and artisans all over the world a hand up, look no further than Divas4Divas. They have everything from intricate Haitian Metal Art pieces, to bright furniture made from sari cloth, to hand bags, jewellery and scarves from Uganda. OR, give a loan with Kiva.org.  What a powerful way to (literally) spread Christmas Cheer.

    Here's another guy spreading the cheer.
    Happy December!

    November 09, 2011

    Since I have arrived here I've had this certain thought in my head, but I've felt it's somewhat politically incorrect to say. I'm just going to say it anyway -- there is something incredibly cozy about the slums.

    Children run from home to home and are the entire community's children. Mothers share the load of cooking, cleaning and scolding. There's always tons of people around to laugh or play games with. Children bathe together, mothers cook together and men ... well the men seem to sit and chat together.

    All along I wanted to see what it was like in Katputli as the sun set and night arrived, as to me dusk is the coziest time of day. During our visits to the girls home on Diwali I got to see it first hand (and probably on the happiest day of the year). Everyone is busy cooking in their homes or just outside of them, children are bouncing from house to house and people gather just to talk or laugh together. They call the elder females "Didi" for "older sister" or "Aunty" if they're a woman so you hear these often. If you sit for one moment and close your eyes, listening with your heart to the shouting and laughing, you get the feeling that you're just visiting one big family.

    They are incredibly poor in monetary means. They are constantly faced with difficulty and the air around them literally stinks. Yet there is something so cozy about their lives. And for anyone who knows me, they know the feeling of being cozy means everything. I will miss the wonderful people of cozy Katputli Nagar.






    October 08, 2011

    It's always sad/overwhelming/exciting/anxious/hectic when leaving for a long trip. In the midst of the storm, I wanted to keep my appreciation and positive vibes up! Here are some things that make me happy:

    Kay Logan, for dropping off your card last week and giving me amazing, hopeful words of encouragement: you're a true gem. I have SO enjoyed getting to know you and you're a rockstar at typing once you get going. I hope you are reading this. I hope you see all of my pictures and stories while I'm away! If not, I will come visit when I'm back. You taught me just as much as I taught you.

    Knowing my Habitat families will be in their own HOMES by the time I get home. Snow, stay away until they get in there! I can't wait to deliver my childhood barbie doll home to my two little ladies there...in their own home.

    My sibling weekend. My Thanksgiving dinner with Ang's other family. And my parents encouragement and patience with my ever-changing, always-changing ideas. Family, right? And my friends who are family. The encouraging words & thoughts from my soul sisters and brothers. You know who you are!

    My job - and all of the employees there. You've set me free and had me back plenty of times. I'm glad our passions can overlap and work so well.

    My kitty! Mrow mrow! I will miss you so much! Please don't forget me. Eat well, sleep well and enjoy your time away from me bugging you. I'll be back before you know it.

    Canada. Love you, you precious nation. Mother Earth. The Wilderness here. Fall. You're so good to us. Let us be good to you back and be thankful for what you give us.

    The idea of living my life out of a backpack..again. Humbling, oui?

    My chance to go on a trip like this and have all of YOU to share it with. Happy Thanksgiving all. Enjoy your turkey. Almost time to jump on the jet plane. Next stop? Chicago. But after that? Indiaaaaaa!

    I have a feeling life's about to change. In a big way or a small one, either way it's changing. Game on.

    See you soon!