The defining moment in my life that shifted the way I was thinking...and brought me to ubuntu.
Great question. Tough to answer.
In the sense of living and breathing and working and playing.
Sometimes things become much clearer in life when you ask yourself, What Don't I Want? as compared to the overwhelming What DO I Want?
I moved home last November to finish my degree. I just handed in my last assignment. I went on a soul searching trip to India, worked hard on a HFH project, started studying Spanish and will visit Central America for an important project in the next week (eeks!)
But then what?
At this point there is so much uncertainty in my life. Where will I move this fall? Will I go back to El Salvador to do an intern position? Where will I work once my contract is done in December?
When asking myself "What do I want?" there are a million answers. I want my own bookstore / community / inspiration hub where I can run a small consulting firm and raise funds for initiatives close to my heart - such as those for women, children and nutrition. I want to help a handful of my clients grow their inspiring businesses. I want ongoing education. I want a small, character filled home filled with the great presence of humanity and love. I want hiking and biking and swimming and beach volleyball. I want to be able to visit ES on an ongoing basis to help manage the project I'm learning so much about. I just want ....too much?
So what don't I want? I don't want to live stagnant. I don't want to live without creativity and freedom and flexibility in my job and life. I don't want to stay here for much longer, because I'm ready to grow and push myself and move on to the next adventure.
So it becomes clear. My next move is to move. Sooner than I know I'll be on my way to the mountains and forests and streams to let nature wash over me and begin the next chapter, building a brand new old soul life. I will take my Central America trip one day at a time, as I know it's so vital that I first figure out my life, and set up so much love in my life that it spills over to that project if it's meant to be. September will bring a cozy future full of bookshelves and markets and a bit of mountain men with plaid jackets and good hearts if you will. And then - and then we'll start about the task of creating what I do want.
Until then...
I moved home last November to finish my degree. I just handed in my last assignment. I went on a soul searching trip to India, worked hard on a HFH project, started studying Spanish and will visit Central America for an important project in the next week (eeks!)
But then what?
At this point there is so much uncertainty in my life. Where will I move this fall? Will I go back to El Salvador to do an intern position? Where will I work once my contract is done in December?
When asking myself "What do I want?" there are a million answers. I want my own bookstore / community / inspiration hub where I can run a small consulting firm and raise funds for initiatives close to my heart - such as those for women, children and nutrition. I want to help a handful of my clients grow their inspiring businesses. I want ongoing education. I want a small, character filled home filled with the great presence of humanity and love. I want hiking and biking and swimming and beach volleyball. I want to be able to visit ES on an ongoing basis to help manage the project I'm learning so much about. I just want ....too much?So what don't I want? I don't want to live stagnant. I don't want to live without creativity and freedom and flexibility in my job and life. I don't want to stay here for much longer, because I'm ready to grow and push myself and move on to the next adventure.
So it becomes clear. My next move is to move. Sooner than I know I'll be on my way to the mountains and forests and streams to let nature wash over me and begin the next chapter, building a brand new old soul life. I will take my Central America trip one day at a time, as I know it's so vital that I first figure out my life, and set up so much love in my life that it spills over to that project if it's meant to be. September will bring a cozy future full of bookshelves and markets and a bit of mountain men with plaid jackets and good hearts if you will. And then - and then we'll start about the task of creating what I do want.
Until then...
Love
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