Planting Seeds for my Own Development

Let's just put it out there and see how the Universe picks this one up. I feel like I am spending time right now planting seeds towards my future while enjoying my present and where I'm at. Even if I'm nowhere in particular.

Here's one example. I had dinner with a friend here the other night who has been to El Salvador many times in the past two decades. He is the minister for a church. His wife and him have gone down yearly and even lived near Ahuachapan (very close to the Guatemalan border) to teach about different facets necessary for development:

• Gender Equality
• Agriculture
• Health/Medical
• Hygiene/Water
• Education
• Changing the way they think about Religion and Violence

After a delightful dinner and sharing some sad, happy, touching and the always-present-and-fun-to-laugh-at-now frustrating travel stories, he and his wife brought up that they could potentially need a project manager as they are getting too old to live down there. They may have a very large donation coming for a sustainable agricultural project and need someone with project management skills and the passion to oversee that and other development projects. They know the Director of the Women's Institute and her rebel husband (literally was a rebel in the war). They know women's issues and empowerment are where my passion lies and would help me to work and create projects accordingly. They have also dabbled in microfinance, which is highly important to me and an industry that I hope to learn more about in coming months (aka KIVA.org). They have many friends that would make my living there comfortable and safe. They are two of the most trustworthy people I've ever met. 

It would mean I'd have to fundraise to live. It would mean leaving everyone here whom I love for an extended period of time.

But it would also mean that instead of talking about what I want to do, I'd be living it.
Isn't that the point?

I won't know any specifics for awhile, so how do I prepare for that? Sitting back on this one, not jumping in head first (like everyone in my life has seen me do) but seeing exponential potential. But, like anything scary and overwhelming, there are just so many 'buts': 

But I'd need to know Spanish.

 - I'm signed up in a weekly Spanish class and loving it. Solved.

But I have always said I'd finish my degree this year.

 - I will have my last course done by June. Mark my words.

But El Salvador? I always thought I'd go to Africa when it really counted.

 - I guess I answered this one with my hopeful humanity & me post. Humanity is humanity, period. El Salvador has experienced the same issues that I've become tied too around the world; i.e. indigenous inequality, women's issues, health and education problems. I'd have the chance to live in Central America and travel (with what money mind you?) to many areas that mean a lot to me and see some close friends. And I'm still young. Maybe Africa will be next next. Maybe?

But I'll have no money! I won't even make money.

 - So what? Maybe the world will end. Maybe it won't. Maybe one day I'll save up enough money for the down payment on a tiny cozy cabin to call my own. Maybe I'll live a nomadic life for many more years to come. Maybe something lucky will happen because I'll follow my passion. Point is - who knows! Everything is maybe. Maybe. Maybe.

So? Sitting back. Taking small steps (make that Spanish steps for me...!) Listening for whispers of reason & passion combined.